So, recently I was talking to a friend from school named Tyler. We talked about the issue of acceptance and after sleeping on it, I got inspired by the conversation. This is what I realized:
As humans, we are constantly and naturally looking to others for approval and for acceptance. But at the end of the day, no amount of acceptance from other people will be enough to satisfy you. Until you learn to accept yourself, life cannot be fulfilling or satiable. But I believe that the only way to personally accept that you are worthy is to realize that a greater being, that God, loves and accepts you exactly the way you are.
Because face it, your thoughts alone aren't enough to give you confidence in yourself, because when you depend on yourself, that becomes borderline egotistical. And even acceptance from someone else, by itself, is not going to be enough, because they are human just like you. The thing about God's acceptance is that it's a love from someone else, who is above all else, and above you. His is the only acceptance that will ever matter & the only one that really counts.
And the amazing thing is that this is an acceptance that you don't have to prove your worth for, because He already accepts and loves you for the person you are, for what you've overcome, and for who you've become. In his eyes, you are beloved. And that's the one love that matters and it's already there. And you know what? There is nothing you could ever do to make God love you more.
You are worthy, you are loved, and you were created in God's image to have a purpose in this world.
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7 years ago
This is not to insult you, hurt, or offend you
ReplyDeletebut rather in hope of opening your eyes to those around you
who you may not suspect need saving and rescue
but are hiding sadness and need under a fragile mask of normality
You and I.
once close friends
I trusted you with my thoughts, feelings, hopes, and failures
but distance and time drew us apart
these past months and even now
I’ve struggle with worthlessness, acceptance, pressure, stress, loneliness,
least of all to say my faith in Christ
such an unimportant person, so unaccomplished, unmotivated, flawed, unfaithful
I wanted to find a sympathetic friend in you
but we’ve become like strangers
little connection or true relationship
I get the impression that I’m not a good enough Christian to you
a weak influence. an unfaithful servant
it hurt to know we have no spiritual connection
I needed a sympathetic ear, a rescue to bring me back
but I was and am afraid
afraid my story will only receive a reply of how I must try harder in seeking the Lord
you must believe I tried
He loves me, He cares,
but where is He?
I do not feel he is here
cannot find the light
at times, the Lord was my only comfort and reason holding me back
keeping me from ending it all
that and my sensibility telling me that ending everything would be useless and destructive
I’ve come so far in life, at least I like to believe I have
I will not give up now
tears are useless
drowning myself in self-pity will get me nowhere, spiritually or in this world
I’ve found another listening friend
but distance and my cover still get in the way
I am still alone in my sadness
you
a model Christian
you showed me how you once struggled with similar issues
you showed me that I am not the only one
but I do not feel support or even care
I admire your example, but I still have not found my peace
you have found your inner peace
you have found what matters
you have found satisfaction in the Lord
but I
I still have worldly ambitions
I still have worldly dreams
yet I
I still want to find peace in the Lord
I still want to find satisfaction, acceptance and happiness in my life
but I
I have not met my expectations
I have not completely found myself in the Lord
me and you
drifting
farther and farther
apart
sorry, I didn't mean to say you don't care
ReplyDeletehopefully you don't interpret the above that way
I mean to say that although you relate
I had hoped you knew me well enough to be able to tell that I needed the support and understanding when I did. I understand staying anonymous on formspring and here doesn't help the matter much, I guess I had too high of expectations but letting it all out in person will still be extremely difficult, especially when I don't have a good opportunity to do so face to face. I'm glad you've found your worth though I still struggle with mine. I hope that nothing will get in the way of our friendship again though if we stay far apart like we are now, I understand.
Best of luck with living life, dear.
I hope you understand you are extremely important to me and have huge wealths of talent. That plea (if I may call it that) was written so beautifully and poetically.
ReplyDeleteBut first of all, I'm sorry for neglecting our relationship and I mean that genuinely and from the bottom of my heart.
To be honest, I think at this time of great development in my life, I have taken a turn from growing myself and subconsciously turned away from compassion to others. And for that I am seriously sorry, but thankful that you are opening my eyes to that issue.
I also hope you understand that my life change and the walk of life I'm on right now does not make me any better than you. I am not any less broken than you, but Jesus is the one who makes us equally beautiful and worthy in our own ways.
If there is anything I can do to directly help and reach out to you, please allow me to deliberately help you in that direction. You are never insufficient or unworthy of anyone, not me, and especially not Jesus' love. I hope that He will work in your life and that you continue to be open to his love. Please know that people need each other to live and to make life worthwhile. Being able to talk to you is no where near something annoying or time-wasting to me. In fact, being able to help others makes people feel useful. And the opportunity to talk to you and hopefully help you helps me in return. It's a blessing to be able to reach out to you. And know that you have changed my life by coming to me.
I do hope that his blog is a resource to you that is hopefully encouraging. Because all of us are broken and chained by sadness and imperfection. But you are always good enough, beautiful enough, worthy enough for the love of Jesus. Stay strong, sister. He will not forsake you.
And I don't want to either. Your communication is a blessing to me and I'm sorry I haven't been able to figure out who you are. Thank you for thinking so highly of me and coming to me. You are a beautiful blessing to me, and a glorious child of the King.